Food File: My Journey

Target Audience: Overweight Christian Men, Overweight Christian Women

Food FileThis blog is dedicated to the hundreds of thousands, perhaps millions, of Christians who battle an addiction to food. In my case, it is anything sweet, followed closely by salty snacks like potato chips or peanuts.  I would primarily like to reach out to other Christian men who struggle with food issues. When it comes to food, there is no equality. Women, as a gender, are far more aware and sensitive about their food issues than men. This isn’t even up for debate. Attend any regular Weight Watchers meeting and you could be the only man sitting among a group of 25 women. I’ve been there a number of times. Many diet programs did not even feature or advertise to men until recently. 

I am 63 years old. I am 5’7″ and weigh approximately 350 pounds, although I haven’t weighed myself recently. Over the course of the past 30 years I have tried Weight Watchers a number of times, Overeaters Anonymous twice, high protein-low carb diets a few times, eating less, not eating high carb foods, cutting back on desserts, forbidding myself any desserts at all under any circumstances, punishing myself when I ate something that was “forbidden”. That last one only led me into dark periods of depression and self-loathing, and defeat. I went to the Wharton Clinic, in Ontario, where they gleefully presented the benefits of using drugs and/or laparoscopic surgery, which I have never considered for myself.

Currently, I attend Celebrate Recovery  which is a multi-faceted, Jesus-centered, 12 Step program that supports people who may be addicts, but may have issues that are obstacles to their Christian walk with God. So far I am finding this to be quite helpful mainly because of the accountability that I have each week. There is something about knowing that I will sit in a room with other people recovering from other issues and “check in” with them about my battle with food. Up to this point, that knowledge of accountability (no judgment) has prevented me from bingeing in private, or indulging in desserts in restaurants when I am alone. There is nothing wrong with munching on a bag of chips while watching a good movie now and then, but I tend to buy large bags of chips and eat them for supper, breakfast the next morning, and if there are any left, lunch that day. I don’t want to live like that. There is also nothing wrong with having a dessert in a restaurant on occasion, whether alone or with other people. These are personal boundaries that I established to help me on my food journey. The boundaries are designed to change as time progresses, to become tighter, more focused. The ultimate goal, of course, is to honor God with my food at all times and in all places. That was why I went to Celebrate Recovery in the first place. I wanted to get to a place where I honored God with my food and didn’t need to feel guilty, embarrassed, or ashamed when I ate at public gatherings, or in private.

My goal for this blog is quite simple: I check in each week, probably each Wednesday and discuss the victories and the struggles with food over the past seven days. I am hoping that I can be transparent in what I share, because it is in hiding that I am in the greatest danger.

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